Fall Shifting

Good Morning all,



I love this time of year, a crispness in the air, the leaves are changing, winter approaches.... There is something comforting in the familiarity of the seasons.

Last weekend I participated in a spiritual retreat. Twice a year we gather. It is a welcomed respite from the hectic life I now have. A group of men, committed to staying sober, NO MATTER WHAT, looking to reinforce our connections with GOD. Always something happens. I used to go with an agenda; now I just go. My sponsor has pointed out that we are human BEINGS... not human DOINGS! It can be a challenge to "do nothing".

The connection I feel with GOD is sometimes overwhelming. My job is to pay attention. Avoiding the same @#$%*&^ actions and behaviors is really, really difficult. I have a beautiful wife, an awesome son, a good job, loving family, friends and neighbors. Yet I sometimes feel like I have to prove something...

My alcoholism is never going away. My thinking can be a real challenge. GOD has put so many good, good people in my life. The changing season reminds me that nothing lasts forever. The only constant is change.

I have felt something inside of me shift. It is a good thing. My hope and goal is to focus on what is fleeting and precious, the way my wife's eyes twinkle when she laughs... my son's exuberance when he describes a game he enjoys.... my puppy's wagging tail.

Words are unable to express the deep sense of purpose and comfort I feel when GOD and I connect. He is there, I know it.

J







Last night I was @ a 2nd Step meeting and the words "faith that broadened and deepened" jumped off the page.